Good things and bad things happen all the time...

Good things and bad things happen all the time in our life. I think the worst thing is to lose somebody you love very mush, your partners, your family, or your friends...

It's the loss you know you will NEVER have them back again. If you lose your money, you probably make some more; if you were not healthy, you probably still have a chance to get healthy again...
But we will never have a chance to have people die coming back...

When I was 5, I lost my grandpa on my father's side...I saw his body in the ambulance. I always remember how the body of my grandpa looked like when he died...Since then, I don't like having a glance at any ambulances roaring on the roads...

when I was 18, I lost my father. I was with him for his last night in the hospital but I still feel regret sometimes that I didn't spend more time with him before he was gone. I wish I could have talked to him more and could have been around him again before he left us behind...I always had felt my father by my bedside for about one year while I was sleeping. Was I crazy? Maybe I miss him too much but I did wish he was at my bedside watching over me...

When I was 28, I lost my grandpa on my mother's side. My grandpa was from China and he had a special accent when he talked.. I still remember when my grandpa called my Chinese name,the tone he usually used. He had never gone back to China but I know Taiwan was his home already...

When I was 29, near 30, I almost lost my mother who had a serious car accident. She survives and I am thankful for God. I am truly...thankful...

Today there is a sad news, my husband's grandfather had just died. My husband and I have been thinking of visiting his family in Australia... I have never seen my husband's grandpa. But I still feel sad because now I am part of the Andersons. I wish I could have a chance to meet him, but it is not going to happen. Never.

The story doesn't count losing some of my relatives, my pet dog, my pet fish and my friend...

When you are getting older, you see more and more people leaving you forever.It hurts when the ones you love die. People say "time heals". But how much time? Could it be the time of your rest life to heal? I don't know and I don't want to know.

I know what I can do is to love the ones I love more and more before they leave me behind or before I leave them behind...
I know God always arrange the right things for everybody and God knows when it's the best time for people to die.
I know it...I do...